Closure

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Closure

What you’re about to read is an actual text message that I wanted to send to an ex..I am warning you now that it does have some grammatical errors, but honestly who cares about those things when you are expressing your feelings through a text… What inspired me to write this was an article that I read about closure and how we need it to move on from a past relationship.. At the end of the article one of the suggestions was to write a letter.. and that’s when I began to text…

The text read : I’m happy.. I’m beautiful… and amazing is what I tell myself everyday when I wake up.. You see after this relationship ended you went on to be happy and live your life with someone and falling in love all over again… and me I was left with a broken heart trust issues and crying every single day… I blamed myself for you leaving me for someone else.. I thought maybe I pushed u to hard or cared to much.. I was in love I knew you were the one for me… you had your flaws but hey no one is perfect right??? But I didn’t care .. I saw something in you that no one else could see…but where did it all go wrong… you see when you end a relationship you owe that person closure.. we need that to move on with our lives..so that we can stop beating ourselves up.. because you see without you providing a reason why you feel that all of a sudden you don’t want to be in this relationship anymore we r left with a mess… I’m afraid to start over again .. what if I make the same mistakes that I did in my last relationship..here is the crazy thing about all of this.. why is it that we always blame ourselves when the other person decides that they are over it.. it’s like you never think that he or she was fucked up but it was all you…smh… the problem with being honest and telling that person why you want to break up is because you don’t want to take responsibility for your actions or feel guilty… maybe you don’t want to admit that you are a cheater.. so you let the other person go on feeling like they were at fault… people say that karma is a bitch and you will get what you deserve and even though u did have some bad luck.. you were still able to move on and be happy with someone new.. you know what I did??? I cried every single day… even to this day sometimes I cry.. and not because I still have feelings but I cry because I can’t believe that someone that I finally trusted …cared so deeply about .. that sat and looked me in the face and tell me every day that he loved me and was happy with me.. even wanted to marry me… I went through a niggas ain’t shit movement.. that I don’t need a man to make me happy…I’m happy single … but then realized that I need to stop denying myself happiness all because he messed up…I can’t believe that I allowed you to make me feel like I wasn’t pretty or good enough for you smh… but now that I take a step back and evaluate the situation maybe I am better off without you… I did get something good out of this.. I gained a new friend and a second family that no matter what they always welcome me into their home with open arms and I appreciate that… This letter to you was truly the closure that I needed… and I don’t expect you to care or understand… you probably won’t even read it but I know that I’m truly ready to fall in love again with someone else because I’m finally ready to move on…

Now you’re probably wondering why i did not send that message to him. To be honest do you even think that he would care??? Do you think that he would read it ?? I felt that if I sent the text to him.. it would show that I still care and have feelings for him. I really needed this for myself .. I needed to give myself the closure that I deserved..

Feeling blue

Feeling blue

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Don’t you just love reading a good fashion blog??? I know I do….I love reading about all the fancy places that they have traveled to and seeing all the beautiful clothes that they get to wear, expensive clothes at that, and I love seeing all the delicious food that they get to eat… lol I don’t why I mentioned the food.  Sounds exciting right?? Makes u wish u could live that lifestyle right??  I know I wish I could, but unfortunately I can’t lol.. I am a dog groomer with bills , trying to save for a house and start a business so this blogger here can’t afford to be fancy… 

    Why read this blog??? I think you should read it because you will be able to relate to it.  Everyone wants to look good but let’s face it we are on a budget.  I can show you how to shop trendy and save money, and make something that you have at home look fierce.  I don’t follow the trends because I am different..  I am what you call a free spirit, I mean just look how my blog posts are written… How many bloggers do you know that will put multiple periods where commas should go ??? Not a lot , but me I don’t care lol.. I do what I want and I dress how I want… and you can too…Sure I will attend some events if I can afford them , and if I have time off , but even if I can’t I will still have things to write about and outfits to post so don’t worry.